sherlyn's musings.

11:46 PM
Saturday, February 28, 2004

listening to // shine we are! :: BoA
feeling // tired

first things first... hey tzehow!! haha... aren't i such a good daughter to blog and let you kaypo about my life. hahas. i want a lolly for that. =) so... it's been almost a week since i last touched this blog. been too lazy to update. bet you guys all missed me. hahs. i'm feeling thick skinned. today was a pretty lousy day. didn't know they terminated the 111 service to my uncle's place so it's a whole new route. ended up in some unknown area. walked and ended up in suntec city, took the train and realised i only at 47 cents in my ez link. lousy crap. so took train down to tiong bahru and walked home. my legs hurt!!! it's not my day. i hate the murphis law. it should be abolished.

yesterday rocked tho. had sec one orientation camp campfire!!! took lotsa pics. you can find them in the moments in time section yahs. will find a way to host the videos too. whee! =) reached school around 8 plus... met wen han on the bus to school. as usual, he was chilling with aud and gang at starbucks. campfire already started when i reached the bus stop... could hear angela and roxanne's voice. hahahs. good thing i was just in time for the performances. justin said hi to me. woah. shocking~ 1F's dance was good... see jocelyn, dionel and ziyang!! i told you you guys could do without my lousy choreographing. i'm proud of you man! *clapclap* mmmz. 1H was entertaining. beverly dances well. mingled around with the crowd and took random pictures of people. and i realised i took a picture of raincloud without noticing it. but it came out all blur and fuzzy. so equals to not taking at all. nevermind that. sang songs... danced along abit. hehehe. we all know sherlyn's mad. everything ended around 10 plus.. I AM AMAZED. i expected elaine lim to yadda on and on. blahblah blah.... the usual. went to holland to meet up with aud and gang. tg left early. dammit. wanted to talk to her bout some stuff. left at around 12... reached home bout 12.30am. the taxi fare is a killer!! i am officially pronounced broke. sigh.

other than that... having lotsa thoughts in my mind recently. been sortta left out here and there in school... so i'll just sit aside and let everything go by and then find some empty slot which i can fit in. *shrugs* i'm bad at analogies(sp?). i think gloria fits in more with eugenia and the PA gang. and when i'm with them i feel like as if i'm trying too hard to fit in and end up sticking out like a sore thumb. nia... even longer story. don't know why i was so close/so distant to her then and now. i find it perfectly alright that i walk right past her and not saying hi. i don't know. is it me or just a passing phase? it's rather disturbing. thirdly. i feel like some certain individual is being a total arsehole and the time spent with him was more of a mistake. you prolly didn't love me for me. but instead love me because of sympathy. i just wanna let you know i don't need your sympathy thankyouverymuch. people have told me what you said about me and it's utterly disgusting that i treated you so well and i get all this shit in return. you're an ungrateful and selfish prick.

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

6:03 PM
Sunday, February 22, 2004

listening to // stop living a lie :: david sneddon
feeling // lousy

i should just kill myself. i hate myself for saying all that. i hate myself for hurting you. i hate myself for being such an insensitive freak of nature. i hate myself for being such an idiot. i hate myself for being such a lousy friend. i love you and i don't wanna hurt you. i promise i won't be such a no brainer dork. please forgive me... i'm sorry. really, i am...

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

10:40 PM
Friday, February 20, 2004

listening to // je t'attends :: axelle red
feeling // torn.lost.affected.

i love that song. =) thanks xun. you are officially promoted from a jukebox to and mp3 player. haha. i wonder why i can still laugh. been out of sorts for the past few days and i'm losing sleep from all of the crap that's been coming my way. i'm so glad it's already friday. was so tired in school today i slept through almost all the lessons. and that really sucks. i should be paying attention! argh. mmmz. mok, tiff goh and i suddenly develeped this thing for sec threes. rainbow, raincloud and raindrops. lols. i still get to see raincloud next year! HAH! and i see raincloud every monday for that UWC exchange program thing. sweet. will bring my camera soon to take snaps of everyone. when it ends i'm so gonna miss wanda.

on the down side, been longing to speak to someone for ages. after getting my life ruined because i trusted someone, i tend to keep to myself more often. but after bottling all my thoughts and emotions, it's overflowing and driving me insane. i wish i had presto with me. dogs make better companions than humans cos 1.) they don't backstab you, 2.) they love you unconditionally whether rain or shine and 3.) it's magical how they make you feel better without saying anything. **hey presto, i know you're somewhere out there. please come tonight cos i've got things to share.** i miss my babe. well, at least i know he's happy in doggie heaven. i love you more than anything babe. sigh. well, am off to sleep. really dead tired. thank god it's a saturday tomorrow. i get to wake up late and watch spongebob. grins.

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

11:05 PM
Wednesday, February 18, 2004

listening to // nothing's gonna stop us now :: starship
feeling // totally not me

don't you think that oldies just rule? i feel so retro now. all i need is a disco ball, pretty lights and christabel and we'll both turn into retro raving queens! yeah!! though i would prefer the title of princess. haha. school was pretty alright today, minus trying to keep myself awake and all the total defence day exercises and all. we had rations for recess today... biscuits, NEWater and sweet potato porridge. thank goodness i saved my breakfast. then we had the power cut thingy. and thankfully today was relatively windy so... no stuffiness. whee! and for the last period we had this talk by some retired colonel(sp?) john morrice or something like that. was trying real hard to keep myself awake. had a panel discussion session and he said there are enough boys to serve national service! gr0ovy. ^_^;; then after that had camp briefing. we're going to bintan!! but there's gonna be loadsa sun and outdoor activities. well, hoping i don't burn there. i hate it when my nose starts peeling. celebrated maple's birthday after school today. gawd, i feel so guilty after eating two pieces of pizza. -_-" shucks. christopher joined in... he's quite nice. but just ji hyper and bit wierd. well, sec ones la huh?

went down to town with christabel and chu to buy ben's present. at first they wanted to buy a barbie doll. and it's like... wth for? at least kim got him thongs which is still uh... usable if he wants to lah. so in the end went down to flash and splash and got ben a pair of slippers. and then we went to take neoprints!! and chu took neoprints too. waaaaah. . . . miracle eh? i am amazed. i like the neoprints. superman queenies right bel? *grINz* went to get ice cream before sitting down to yak abit. stoned cos i didn't feel like talking. haha. moodswings. =S then i started people watching because i lost interest in a particular palm tree i was staring at. and guess what!!?? i saw willy low!! hehehe. went nuts. talked for a while more... then walked down to the bus stop with chu. and willy low was still there!!!! thank goodness for buses which make you wait a hell long time. hee. plucked up lotsa courage to ask him for his autograph. was so excited that my hands were all cold and trembly. heh. boy, did he look good or did he look good?! well, i'm proud of my diary now man. it has willy low's autograph! =) ah minus the fancy html. i'm lazy. sms time with jow. nitess people.

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

4:35 PM
Monday, February 16, 2004

listening to // opposites attract :: hi 5
feeling // burdened and utterly broke

didn't go to school today. had one of those migraine attacks again. went to see the doctor and he said it happens because i have too much exposure to the sun and wants me to stop training. told him i can't so he gave me some pills to stop it. well, it's in a pretty shade of blue and yellow. fairfield power! =) haha. and the medication was expensive man. and it came out from my own allowance so now i only have $20 for the rest of the month. TWENTY BUCKS!!! sigh. anyone willing to donate to my pocket money fund? heh. and i still gotta save to buy so many things that i want. i'll just have to wait i guess, it's alright man.

been pretty bogged down by lotsa things lately. i'm getting more and more muddle-headed. class administration stuff is killing me and takes up almost all my time in school. why? because that lousy chairman makes me do everything. !@#$% i swear i will kill him someday. bloody good-for-nothing piece of hairy lard. hope he gets into trouble for his stupid sideburns. the elvis presley era is waaaaay over man. well, maybe i'll give him some time before i decide to snap at him once again. there's only a certain amout of shit i can take.

mmmz. feel like as if i'm drifting away from some people and being more solitidary. or maybe because i can't fit in with the crowd. *shrugs* i'm still having problems fitting in with my present class. is it just me? i miss 3G'o3 - minus certain individuals that is. wonder how it's gonna be like next year. well, hopefully things will change. nowadays i feel safer keeping to myself and not telling people anything. after a certain incident last year that has left me deeply scarred. yes, i am still sortta affected by it. it hurts hell lot when you trust someone and they just broadcast your life to people. and i realised i'm a famous celeb among the sec 3 squash girls. they know about my past and who i was with yadda. it's kinda scary y'know. especially when i don't even know half their names. -_-" but i got to know what so-and-so said about me from the sec 3s. it's quite entertaining and amusing. she ought to write a book. i'll be the first in line to purchase it. who knows, it may just be a bestseller. hah! and i might just take half the earnings and then i'll be rich. =) people warn me that i should stop talking about so-and-so and that i should grow up and not be so childish. and so-and-so can sue me for harrasment. oh yes sure, go ahead, sue me. you're more than welcome to. some people. *rolls eyes* go psycho everyone, tell everyone that i'm a nosey parker and that i bad-mouth everyone. it'll be such an honour to have my name of everyone's lips eh? i'll be even more famous than william hung. ha.ha.ha. whatever. just felt like bitching. if you're not happy with this entry because i just dissed that girl who seems all-so-angelic in your eyes, don't tell me. just go to a corner and whine. i'm not listening to you and your nonsense on how i should grow up.

[edit]talking to dory~. and listening to je t'attends makes me feel much better now. i'm so prone to moodswings now. so be warned everyone - mess with me and i'll unleash my vindictive cynicism on you and your dessicated ideas. fwah. imma off cos i don't know what to say now. i love dory~.[/edit]

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

5:00 PM
Sunday, February 15, 2004

listening to // so happy together :: a new found glory
feeling // =)

koped this lame quiz from xun's blog. haha. =)
Step 1: Open your MP3 player.
Step 2: Put all of your music on random.
Step 3: Write down the first ten songs it plays, no matter how embarrassing.

[1] Hyori - 10 Minutes
[2] Jesse Spencer - Molly Smiles
[3] Christina Aguilera - Beautiful
[4] BoA - Atlantis Princess
[5] 5ive for Fighting - Superman
[6] In A Chord - Ice Kachang (xun, im addicted thanks to you! lols.)
[7] LeeAnn Rimes - Insensitive
[8] Paul Van Dyk - Reflections
[9] Spice Girls - Stop
[10] Hi 5 - Funky Reggae Music

lols, well. my embarassing playlist. or... part of it. but hey, i listen to other songs too okay? just that the first 10 were the listed. haha. had an interesting conversation with kenneth. being single and celibate isn't really that sad actually. it's freedom, in a way la. and he came up with this really damn good quote. "we're getting smarter at doing stupid things." to a certain child-bearing individual, it applies oh-so-much to you. being discreet and subtle at making someone feel stupid feels goooood. heh. evil me. dumdeedum. and i love dory, i love dory, i love dory. what else... oh did i mention i love dory? lols. =^.^=

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

11:59 AM
Saturday, February 14, 2004

listening to // sweetness :: jimmy eat world
feeling // indescribable

thanks to dory~. for the song. sorry for the confusing entry. dory~. and my friend tang have nothing to do with each other. haha. tag my board if you still don't get it. haha. anyways, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!! hee. to all the people i owe presents, i'm terribly sorry. eeps. *sheepish*

got lotsa nice presents yesterday. netballers have a thing for glass and candles. haha. almost everything they made contained glass and a candle. but it's pretty tho. =) gloria gave me chocs. whee!! and justin gave me hersheys. woah, didn't see that coming. justin!? woah. thong-ster. haha. =X bel don't kill me. but yesterday wasn't exactly the best either. stupid wong chung hei. AND the class chairman. bloody rich prick. "you're the deputy chairman so you should do all my dirty work." like wtf is that kinda attitude!? some sort of chairman. sits there and does nothing but gets all he damned credit for all i do. ms wong started putting me down, i cried in class. i felt a mixture of anger, sadness, resentment and hatred. made me want to give up my position as class deputy. sigh. i'll just hang in there a little while longer and see what happens. i've been really stressed up lately and i've become more and more absent minded. shucks. better straighten myself up. aiiite. off to church then for dinner. ciaos.

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

10:18 PM
Thursday, February 12, 2004

listening to // angel eyes :: jim brickman
feeling // pms-ish

i don't know why i'm feeling all irritable and pms-ish. something's wrong or amiss. or maybe it's just one of those moodswings. i need chocolate! endorphins!! but it's alright, dory~.'s sufficient enough for me. so, it's been aeons since i last updated my blog and a hell lot of things happened. like my sudden fetish for dory~. =X and uh, tang's mp attachment and he's enlightened and all. and dory~. is a blue tang. but they're not related. gah, whatever. don't know what rubbish i'm typing. and i'm feeling much much much happier now so forget the oh-so-depressing previous entry. but i'll just keep it there for memory's sake. i realised i was living such a big damned lie. till dory~. smashed a brick on my head and woke me up. i owe him one. thanks man.

now, gonna blog some events worth remembering. 24 january was fun. dinner at marche with foo, jow and dory~.! after that went down to monstercue. wo0tx, i finally learn how to play proper pool. and jow's some pool pro la. reminds me of the snowbean cartoon advert. heh. xD thenn. movies with jow, dory~. and his cousin. can't remember his name. woops. but he sortta scares me cos his face is always so solemn. eeps. but he was rather nice tho... but that's beside the point. peter pan was pretty alright, but not that great la. more pool after that. chiong-ed back to cine for last samurai. now that's what i call a good movie! roxxors. left town at around 4.3o am plus. met xiangjun, mark and aloysius there. they were watching last samurai too! =) and ah. got home. sms-ed dory~. till bout 6am before i fell asleep.

mmmz. after typing that out i feel so much happier and perkier. =) whee! i love my friends. hah. went running with kathryn today. gawwwd my stamina sucked. gotta run more often already. and the stupid steep slopes almost killed me. bleahs. but saw this really cute husky at jalan lim tai see. gonna bring a camera the next time i go jogging. =) aiite. going off already. i heart dory~.

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo